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2 coffees
bowl of fruit and fibre
bedroom 2 8.2 x 12
bedroom 3 6.3 x 9.1
lounge 10.6 x 15 with wotking open fireplace
kitchen 12 x 9.2
bathroom 8.5 x 5.3
back garden 52 x 46
I was interested in the letter about the fail-safe apple juice and oil flush for gall-stones (WDDTY vol 7 no 11). On February 3 this year, I had a scan which the doctor told me showed gallstones.
Ten days' later, I contacted my homeopath who advised me to follow the instructions in the February issue of WDDTY. I immediately started the course and followed it exactly. The programme, recommended by the Dulwich Health Society, is as follows:
Drink 2 litres of pure apple juice for six days. On the sixth day, skip dinner. At 9pm, take one or two tablespoons of Epsom salts dissolved in a little warm water. At 10pm, shake together 4oz unrefined cold-pressed olive oil and 2oz lemon juice and drink. Go to bed immediately and lie on your right side with your right knee drawn up towards your chin. Remain in this position for 30 minutes before going to sleep. Prepare another Epsom salts solution in case you need it in the middle of the night. The next morning, you should pass stones that are as soft as putty.
By midnight on February 18 the epsom salts had done their work. At 8am, the next day I passed two bright green 'peas'. At 11am, I passed five softened stones of approx 2cm long, about 12 more pea size and about 12 more smaller ones. During the afternoon I passed several more.
On February 20 I attended a pre-arranged appointment with my GP to discuss the result and of the scan. She was totally shocked when I described my experience and asked me to explain every detail. My GP had never heard of a 'flush' and told me she would have definitely recommended an operation. The stones have been sent for analysis.
I thought: What Doctors Don't Tell You? What Doctors Don't Know!
I am extremely grateful to my homeopath and WDDTY for a simple, painless and quick way of eliminating the stones.
The Good Digestive Guide is packed full of tips like the one you have just read to stay healthy and vibrant. We think you'll enjoy it. And keep healthy.
JSM,
Cheshire.
I am trying so hard to concerntrate on positives and not dwell on anything negative. Especially after Girlies Tragic news. It has made me want to enjoy every single moment and made me realise how precious life is and how lucky I am. Shit happened but so what it is in the past.
I am still struggling wilth me healt issues. Mainily because I am so tired and still feel like my head doesn't belong to me. But I think!!! it is hayfever related, as even my eyes are stinginh and my nose is burning today.
The kids are great. Well Lewis is having a rough time, going from being so loving to so hateful. I think he is so very confused about his blooody GRANDAD. Only time can heal those wounds.
I have seem my dad once since D DAy and it was ok, wierd really I feel able to handle him in a whole new way a nd feel very emotionally detached now.
Damon is fab. Yesterday I couldn't put him down and I even enjoyed those dreaded night wakings. He is so lovely and his smile makes the world seem ok. He has just learnt to hold his arms out when he wants picking up. So sweet.
I only wish lewis was as easy to love. Don't get me wrong I adore him, but it is so hard to show feelings to him as he pushes any kind of soppiness away.
Best go
KAtie
Thoughts like what if he dies in the night, all alone kept filling my mind. Of course that was unlikely as he has a breathing monitor and it would take 2 seconds to get there if I had to. Then my thought got even more ludicrous. Things like what if I die in the night and my baby isn't with me. Crying typing that. The things health anxieties do!!!! It really is horrible living with such stupid fears.
Anyway after working our butts off, getting the room ready I felt a bit excited. The room looked so cute. I also felt very relaxed as there is a singe bed right next to his cot. Then Dh made our bedroom look lovely. This too made me feel a little excited. Time for dh and me again.
All went well during the evening. Even though D had, had a 3 hour afternoon nap. Even after his morning nap. He ate a good dinner and played ect. Then he had a bed time bath,which he shared with me.
The plan after this was to have his hair dried and get ready for bed, in his bedroom. Breast feed and then bed. It all went to plan but he wouldn't settle. Being the first night in his new room, dh brought him back downstairs.
In the end he fed to sleep and I put him in his cot at 10pm. Closely folloew by me at 10.30pm. I did the ritual I do with Lewis everynight. Went to check D and kiss him good night. He was fine of course.
It was only when I went into the bedroom, it hit me. My baby had gone. No cot, no squeezing past it to get to bed. I cried and felt horrible. Nearily went to the bed in his room. But I didn't I knew I had to give it a chance.
Dh came to bed at 11pm, to watch a film with me. Turned the light on and exclaimed "god it looks empty in here" Which upset me even more. Dh managed to take my mind off it and we soon curled up and went to sleep. It was nice to be alone again.
I woke up about 3.00am and laid there for at least an hour listening to Damons noises and movements. Watch the green flash that show his movements. I felt scared to go and check him, incase I disturbed him or incase he wasn't ok. Despite the monitor confirming he was. In the end I did check and he was peacefully asleep.
Then at am I woke up to him gurgling and talking. My baby was ok . I left him to see what happened and he soon nodded off again.
He the woke again at 6.15am, gurgling and playing. Surprisingly not crying and desperate for food. But I decided as he hadn't fed since 9.30pm and because he had been so good. I wouldn't wait for tears......... I'd got and feed him anyway. I thought me appearing would also reassure him that he wasn't alone. His mummy wasn't far away. We snuggled in the single bed, had a feed and a lovely cuddle. He then went back to his cot.
He woke up again at 9am..................... so what a brill night.
xxxxxxx
Also got cramp in my knee and of course I panic and assume it must be a blood clot in my knee. Silly I know but this really is how people who suffer health anxieties think.
I really feel for Julie D today after taking her anti d's last night. I have only ever taken anti d's once, just one dose and the anxiety over taking them landed me in hospital for a week. Very productive I must say. Which is why I won't take anti D's
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Also I have had a slight and I mean slight bang on the head and panic over that also. Even though it only hurt for a few seconds.
Must also record here to remind myself that after a better nights sleep I haven't noticed my eye twitch yet today.
There are 3 ways I could write this. Either on paper, in a private on line journal or publically on BGH. I have decided to write my journal here. Mainily because sharing my feelings and progress, might indirectily be able to help someone else.
I will be talking about many differant things and feelings. But will mainily be dealing with my dreaded health anxieties/phobias, and parenting issues. I will also use the journal to keep a track of Damons progress.
Some of the things I write might be a bit sensitive and many others wil be very personal. Others I know will seem silly and daft to many who read this. But this really is how people like me feel sometimes. I am very lucky in the fact, I can normally rationalise with my thoughts/fears.
WHAT GOT ME TO THIS POINT??
For the first few weeks after Damon being born I was blissfully happy. But as I got more and more tired my old problems crept back in. Getting worse end worse. The end result me convinced I have a brain tumour or some equally nasty thing.
The main symptoms of my fears, have been the fact I can't talk straight, can't think straight and have had a strange ticking/twitching under my eye. I have read all sorts of related things.
On Sunday I was talking to my friend Clare, who has twins 2 and a half. We were talking about tiredness and she just casually said "have you got the strange ticking/twithing around the eye" . The light came on "bing" and I realise I have a crap sleeper and no wonder I feel so crap. The effects of sleep deprivation.................. I had never realised. I will still talk to my doctor but I do feel comfortable with the fact I AM JUST EXHAUSTED.
I guess the above realisation is why I am both tackling sleep issues and facing my health issues too.
xxxx
Pretty good to be honest, but also a bit sad and emotional. Damon went to bed at 7.45pm and I thought the night was doomed. It certainily did look that way at 11pm.
I went to bed and the minute I did............ you guessed it Damon woke up. I had decided no booby, so he had 6oz of formula. Unfortunatily he didn't settle, he was wide awake. So I turned on his Winnie the Pooh projector thing and retreated downstairs. So much for an early night. It took him until past midnight to settle, but at least he self settled.
I did at one point think he had gone to sleep and went to bed and he instantily started crying. I think last night definatily proved Damon really should be in his own room. But this made me so sad, as I don't feel ready to let my little bundle move to his own room. I like having the little fella sleeping right next to me and I love listening to him Breathe. I guess I have to grow up and get my priorities straight. I would have more time and energy for him in the day, if I had more sleep at night.
I really do think that tonight I have to move the cot. I would be silly not to, as I have the ideal opportunity with Lewis being away. If it doesn't work I can soon move the cot back.
After Damon fell asleep, he didnt wake up again until about 4.30am. I fed him and put him back in his cot for him to self settle. Much better then me falling asleep and moving him to his cot when I woke up again.
So all in all last night was good and he didn't wake up again until 8.30am. I am feeling a bit better today, but still very tired. Unfortunatily because of my CP, I need at least a week of good nights, before I see and real improvement in my tiredness level.
Where are we at today. Damon has beena dream baby, had a good breakfast and a play. After taking on board all your lovely advice yesterday I decided to try for a morning nap. So at 10.30am I took Damon upstairs and gave him a feed. Then I put him in his cot to self settle.
He wasn't impressed and did start to cry. At this point I would normally pick him up and place him on the boob. But this time I just reassured him, turned his projector on and gave him his teddy. I then walked out, god that was hard. But it paid off he is now fast asleep, after playong with his teddy for araond 30 minutes.
Firstily I have come to the conclusion that most of the physical symptoms I have are down to serious tiredness and exhaustion. I havent slept for 25 weeks, plus the 9 weeks before giving birth, as we had just moved house and we were trying to get the house ready. I know that it is normal for someone with a young baby to be so tired, but I guess some of us cope with it better then others.
I guess the first issue to be delt with is sleep. I really am getting to the end of my...... I dont know what. Damons sleep is so very hit and miss, both in the day and at night. In the day I really have to fight to get him to sleep and on Saturday for instance he slept for 9 minutes between 8 am and 10 pm. His bed time has been getting later and later too. As a result I haven't been getting any time out.
If he goes to bed at 10/11pm he will sleep till dawn, which isnt bad. Well about 4/4.30am and then that is pretty much it for my night, after that we both nod off/feed/play until it is time to get up.
I thought it was the light waking him up, but last night he went to bed at 8pm and by 2.30am he thought it was morning. He was then awake till 6.30am and dropped then drooped off for 90 minutes. All I can say is help what the hell doI going to do.
I am exhausted keeping him up late, but it was a nightmare putting him to bed early. He also had a bottle at 9pm.
My other musings or should I say questions are........
1. Is there and easy time for Damon to stop breast feeding? What I mean by that is, when will it be least traumatic for him. Sooner or Later. Hope that makes sense now!
2. Is there an easy time to put him in his own room? Again the least traumatic time.
3. NOW TRICKY ONE!! If I keep on letting Damon get his own way all the time and I know I do. Will he really turn out like the horrid, 2 and a half year old girl on the current House of little tear aways.
I DONT HAVE LUNG CANCER AND
I DONT HAVE A BRAIN TUMOUR
i hate feeling like this and it is such a waste of life. if my chest isnt any better i will go back to gp next week, although it is like this every spring/summer and has been for a couple of years, feel so stupid............grhh
As for everything else damon is wonderful and i saw the doc about lew's behaviour last night, so everything is ticking on niceily apart form my bloody head
kt